I don't know exactly where to start. My fiance of 6 months (until last week) have been together 6+ years since we graduated in 2003. We are both 25 years old. We dated a few times on and off throughout high school & dated other people too. Junior & senior years we went to a vocational school together, he was in auto body & I took health occupations. We always ended up back together. He was the one I wanted since I first met him & he wanted me too. All our friends said we belonged together & I believe he is my soul mate. He didn't like school and had to go an extra 6 months so he could graduate. Him & his sister were the only ones out of his family to graduate high school. I supported him and helped him through it. We moved into a trailer in a trailer court together about 6 months after we graduated. We moved again about a year later to another trailer. We have always been so happy in love.                                                                                                                                                 I was born with Chronic Intestinal Pseudo Obstruction where the food I ate didn't go through. I was fed through an IV in my chest for 18 years. He was always there to support and help me through it all. In 2005 I was told I would need a multi-visceral (5 organ digestive transplant). At first I didn't want to do it because everything I tried before hadn't worked. But I wanted to be better for him, not have ivs to be hooked to everyday. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. He promised me & the doctor that he could handle me being away and helping when I got home. On Sept 11th-2005 I recieved my transplant at the University of Pittsburgh, PA. We live in Bryan, OH - 5 hours from Pittsburgh. While I was there I did an at home course to be a vet assistant. He did handle it; he stayed home and worked to pay the bills and take care of my 2 dogs and 2 birds. He would come almost every weekend by himself or with my dad for 2-3 months to Pittsburgh to be with me. (My mom stayed with me the whole time in Pitts) In 2006 after I got better and finally got ssi & ssdi & a part time job we bought a house in town. My parent's own their own mechanic/detail business. We all dragrace, snowmobile, go boating, run rc cars etc...I don't see how he can give up all the fun stuff we do together. We loved eachother so much and did everything together. I have everything I have ever wanted. I now have my 3 dogs, 2 birds, a chinchilla, my own horse, and we both just got motorcycles. We are both going to college now also. We have also been trying for a baby for about a year.
I thought we were fine until about 3 weeks ago he drifted himself away from me. He wouldn't look at me, touch me, would hardly say anything to me and was sleeping on the couch every now and then. After he got his motorcycle that is all he wanted to mess with and failed his english class. I finally got him to tell me what was wrong. He said he isn't happy anymore and hasn't been for about 6 months. Said I crab too much & wants a baby. I don't see it as crabbing, I'll ask him to do something that takes 10 minutes and it takes him 3 months to do it. I take 32 meds a day and they can cause mood swings etc...And he acted like it was my fault I wasn't pregnant yet. All I ask is that he pay his part of the bills, take the trash out and every now and then do a small task for me. I do everything else, wash all laundy, clean animal cages, cook meals, take him lunch 2nd shift etc...I don't mind doing these things because he works more than me and I love him.
So he left and went to his parent's a few days before my birthday on Nov 21. Then he tells me that he had met this girl at the bar and was talking to her, he never told her he was engaged, and he swears he has never slept with her. She says she loves him & even bought him a phone & he told me to turn his off. I feel like just calling her and telling her that he was engaged. He says he doesn't know what he wants and needs time to think. I don't understand why he asked me to marry him if he wasn't happy. I share Everything with him and I don't know why he thought he couldn't come to me and tell me he wasn't happy and wanted to see why I wasn't pregnant yet. I want a baby with him more than anything and want to marry him. He acts like he doesn't care and says to do whatever I want.
That's the issue, loosing him hurts so bad I don't want to do anything. The only reason I get up is for my animals and to go to work. All I do is cry and cry, I can't do anything without thinking of him. I didn't even go to my family's Thanksgiving dinner for fear of having a nervous breakdown. My whole family really loved him and his family loved me. He lied to his family and said that he bought the phone and never said anything to them about this girl. He won't talk to anyone, not even his parent's or open up. I don't know what to do, if I'm suppose to wait for him to come back or move on. Everyone tells me to go out & have fun and he will see what he is missing. Everyday with him was my fun. 'I've been through damn near everything' (like the button my friend got me says) I'm not scared of anything but I'm really scared of loosing him forever. We have been through everything together. Transplant, almost foreclosure on our house last year and payments went up but we pulled throught that, lay offs, arguments, having money and then not having any etc...I was even working on looking for a new place to live so payments wouldn't be so much and he wouldn't have to worry about them so much. He pays house payment and his vehicle insurance and I pay everything else and it pretty much equals out.
I don't see how he can just drop everything we have done and been through and worked so hard for & fall out of love with me. I want to fix it, I want my life with him back & I dunno what to do. Nothing seems worth anything without him by my side. I've done everything for him and he has done everything for me. I could care less if we were poor and had nothing, but as long as I have him everything would be fine.  
I just want him to realize how much I love him and how much he has & come back to me, I want him to love me and hold and kiss me like before.   
What do I do to fix it and get him to come back? Maybe hypnotize him? lol
Sorry so long.
Help, everyone give me ideas!

Bucket List...We need more nonsense like this to keep from going goofy worrying about the sorry state of things today.
Place an X by all the things you've done and remove the X from the ones you have not. This is for your Entire Life Time!
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(x) Shot a gun
(x) Gone on a blind date
(x) Skipped school.
(x) Watched someone die (do animals count?)
(x) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Alaska
( ) Been to Cuba
( ) Been to Fiji
( ) Been to Europe
(x) Been to Las Vegas
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been to Florida
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Been on a cruise ship
( ) Served on a jury
(x) Been lost  Ha, Everyday!
( ) Been on the opposite side of the country
(x) Gone to Washington , DC
( ) Swam in the ocean
(x) Cried yourself to sleep
( ) Played cops and robbers
( ) Played cowboys/girls and Indians
(x) Recently colored with crayons
( ) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid for a meal with coins only?
( ) Made prank phone calls
( ) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose.
(x) Caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x)  Danced in the rain
( ) Written a letter to Santa Claus
(x) Been kissed under the mistletoe
(x) Watched the sunrise with someone.
(x) Blown bubbles
( ) Gone ice-skating
( ) Gone snow skiing
(x) Camped out under the stars.
(x) Seen something so beautiful that it took your breath away?
( ) Are or have been Married?
( ) Children?
(x) Have a Pet?   Ya, A Zoo!
( ) Been skinny dipping outdoors
(x) Been fishing
(x) Been boating
( ) Been water skiing
( ) Been Canoeing
(x) Been hiking
(x) Been camel riding  At the zoo
(x) Been camping in a trailer/RV
(x) Flown in a small 4 seater airplane puddle jumper?
( ) Flown in a glider
( ) Flown in a helicopter
( ) Been flying in a hot air balloon
( ) Been bungee-jumping
(x) Gone to a drive-in movie
(x) Done something that should have killed you
(x) Done something that you will probably regret for the rest of your life

1. Any nicknames?  Ang, Lead Foot, Skinny   
2. Favorite Drink?  Mountain Dew           
3. Body Piercing?  bottom ears, top left ear, left eyebrow
4. Tattoos?  one day will
5. How much do you love your job?  most of the time
6. Birthplace:   Ohio
7. Favorite vacation spot?  Montana--Anywhere but here
8. Been to Africa?   No 
9. Ever eaten just cookies for dinner?   Yes
10. Ever been on TV?  Yes
11. Ever steal any traffic signs?  No
12. Ever been in a car accident?   Yes
13. Drive a 2-door or 4-door  vehicle?   Both
14. Favorite number?  24
15. Favorite movie:  10 Things I Hate About You
16. Favorite Holiday ?  Any, all over rated tho
17. Favorite dessert?  ice cream
18. Where do you see yourself in 10 years?   hopefully still in good health

Long day...heading to bed. Worked like 50 minutes this morning then went and cleaned horse stalls. Came home and didn't do much, made some phone calls and paid some bills. Then had to go back and put horses in cauz myrna & dave went to bike club dance. Came home ate and made grocery list. Tomorrow have bird club & might ride Prince cauz it is suppose to be nice out. Pretty tired haven't slept very good in last 2 days. Pat called Thurs. said my labs were fine get them again in a month. Ya!